It's been a while

Its been a while since Ive written on here. Today is intended on being a productive day and I must say I classify blogging as productive.

Well I've been at home here and there and it's been interesting. Really hard to stay strong sometimes, when the family is going a bit mental in a variety of ways. It was at first a nightmare to try and get work done, but I've managed to write 2500 words, ish, while i've been here... I've seen very few people other than my family which is a shame in a way, but everything is so different now. I was uploading some years old photos not too long ago and it really made me nostalgic about years ago and having a childhood. When it used to be fun just to sit in the middle of a shitty town and talk, and throw paint around and cause harmless havoc to the town. But very few of the people I was putting pictures up would I still consider myself close to. And its sad. So many of the boys have gone off to uni and lead their own life without so much as a thought to the old times, and some others just have different interests to me. I'm not naming names, but nor do I want people to assume I'm refering to them, if i still talk to you then it's not going to be you i'm refering to.. Talking of which I've been really glad to have made a bridge with an old friend. Even if it is only made of string and not big gurt metal chunks.. There's at least something tying us together again. Lots of stupid complications and chinese whispers and interferences have made it difficult for us two to communicate properly. But she's a good lass whom I have nothing against whatsoever, just many things said to me made me feel like she had something against me. Seems that was very much all stupidity which has since been resolved, and I'm happy. I admit you cant be everyones friend all the time but there's no point being anyone's enemy. Unless they frustrate you to the point that you dred even saying hello.

anyway, boys.. there's something every girl always feels the need to talk about. The other week I managed to sleep in the bed of someone i'd always had a little soft spot for. Its great because the 'love games' are barely games.. unlike others. There are some people who say one thing, but I swear they mean another, might be because I've lost a whole lot of trust in people, but it may also be because people aren't who they say they are. Love game are for idiots. I say be you and do what you want to do, cause at the end of the day t hat's the you that at the end of the day you want the other to want. Don't be anyone but yourself cause you're making the other person like someone you're not.


The next 2 months are going to be tough for a number of reasons, saying goodbye to friends, deciding what to do with my life, supporting the family and actually trying to do the best work of my entire degree course in that time. The future lies ahead of me, and I don't like how it's looking right now. too overcast and foggy. GIVE ME SUNSHINE.